Friday musings

"Miracles are a retelling in small letters of the very same story which is written across the whole world in letters too large for some of us to see."

then...was pondering Ps 23

reading the VERBS there

words mean something and sometimes we need to stop and analyze them

starts out nice...He leads me...He gives me rest...nice nice
see...i am to LAY DOWN and MAKE MY CAMP where the grass is green and the water is clear


and...when it comes to the time He leads me thru the Valley of the Shadow of Death
i have to keep several things in mind:

one.) HE is leading me...I am not alone in the scary stuff
two.) we are WALKING THRU....it is not His plan that we camp out there and make it home
three.) its a SHADOW....its not reality....if i am In Christ, I am already dead...no harm can come to me

how many times i have confused the Shadow with Reality...been scared witless by it...and when i got to the other side of it all....realized it was just a trick, an illusion...and that He was right after all...



OK....upon more housework and musings....i will add more to FRIDAY

If it sounds impossible and there is no way you can accomplish what you have heard whispered on your GOD-TO-DO list......you probably heard correctly. and you are right, you cant do it...alone.

and....
if it is a TRUE word from God.....guess who else heard it? and guess who else will try the "who do you think you are to try such a thing" identity crisis???
if it happened to Jesus....i should expect such a thing too, eh?

as soon as Father says...YOU ARE MY BELOVED SON....the questions in the desert start: IF you are the Son....

lookin for the tests now...prayin i have the right answers to pass with Papa's approval


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feelin smallish..but okay haha

a bit of a mishmash of thoughts going thru my head until i get a chance to research and write more...uh...intelligently???

i am a ladybug on a banana leaf going down the Amazon River of God's Story

Don Davis at MarsHill in Grand Rapids in March 09

that made me smile
puts some in perspective...its just little ol me...if i concentrate on me and "my" banana leaf i seem big and rather important if i am ruler of the banana leaf and have all authority over said leaf......until i take my eyes off of me and look at the river...and the other leaves...and the other logs...and other creatures....
but the fun part is.......we are all part of the flow of the River....it is moving us...we get to ride along and take part of this Great Story


yah
more stuff to fill it in...


feeling rather smallish in front of the sketched out dream thing that God and I dreamed up

somehow...in same sermon as the ladybug, Don quoted CS Lewis about that feeling of being rather smallish in sight of the God Story He invites us into

need to research it....was good

facing fears and relationships.....yah...good things there. finally..i feel like i can breathe and be open...
friend facing crisis in their marriage....little cracks and little things are becoming a major thing that is scary and threatening..........praying like crazy that God Himself would show up in Resolving Love and Peace and Heal the wounds that have just been laid open and some that have been re-opened. praying that God Himself would clean out the old wounds and apply the BLOOD as cleanser and healing agent and strengthen all the relationships involved....His Plan was for MORE.

yah
Fire of God is everywhere...
purifying, cleansing...

got a message from a friend i havent seen in YEARS YEARS YEARS...had a dream about me last nite...very vivid and real...she doesnt remember dreams much but this one was "real"

details are very cool.........
details about the house i lived in being...odd, not symmetrical....across a field
a square hole in my living room floor about 2 ft deep that i was kinda blaming/irritated at my husband for but not saying it outloud
kinda like a remodeling project that got "stuck"


hmmmm
i can see that workin...i can see it fitting with what God is saying to me

something in the foundation of my LIVING room that is missing that i kinda want to blame on my husband.....a remodeling project that got started but got stopped???

YAH BABY....I am on my way to having God remodel and complete the project...no room to blame or point fingers... just walk on! NO TURNING BACK.

what a Great Papa we have...

ok...dishes and doggie time...will return and add some to this...


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responsible for today...

so...in hearing some of the BIG that God whispered to me recently

....hoping that He follows thru with ordering the steps so I get there, step by step...and not veer off course.

Excited and Terrified...but only really responsible for today's obedience and burning hope within to reach the fullness of it all....

He will be with me, each step...

He is excited too...but not so terrified (haha)

treasure

Place me like a seal over your heart,
like a seal on your arm;
for love is as strong as death,
its jealousy unyielding as the grave.
It burns like blazing fire,
like a mighty flame.

found this in Song of Solomon...8:6....
woo...YES

the flame continues...delighting in this
burning inside

must go see...

go see Brant's blog......about his recent visit to Afganistan and the hospital he served in

the little flowers that pop up instantly after the (very rare) rain reminds us that God isn't finished here

yes...i am so jealous of people going to places like this...
and....i am so glad to know so many willing to GO (and come back with pictures and stories of God's goodness and mercy)

i think i need to go run on the beach and just smile big at PapaGod

wow.test..open hands

posted previous blog on holding relationships with open hands.....

and now....i have the opportunity to prove it in the blogosphere...

one of my blogging heroes is perhaps hearing the call to shut down

tears ensue

the thought of not having her to lean on...to learn from...

but then..hey...

relaxing into Papa...maybe i dont need to

maybe i got to the point that Papa is kickin me out of the nest and ready to actually walk this thing out on my own....

and by doing it in fear and trembling i can actually maintain that friendship in a more concrete way rather than just reading...but actually meeting, calling or (gasp!) letter writing!!

open hands...
did God say it?

then i must...even if there are tears...there is a Holy Burning and i asked for it.

love you Lisa...
The Uprising....perhaps a thing of the past....LOOK OUT ...its gonna go up a few degrees

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verdict is in...
...........her blog is staying open

....and great rejoicing was heard in the land...

learning...open hands

learning to hold things and relationships with open hands

living today...as a gift
no promises of tomorrow
nothing happened in the past that cannot be forgiven...we lived thru it and we can move forward

we have the Light and the Hope

we are carriers of the Light and the Hope

by living with closed fists i live with fear and worry and anger and doubt

by living with open hands i live and embrace the Truth....i am loved and cared for. i will be provided for. i have a place. i have enough. i know the Creator, Almighty, Redeemer and He is enough...more than enough...and with Him, i can really get thru anything.